My brain hurts sometimes. Just typing hurts was a pain because I wanted to type Hurst instead.
Wanting to do things and have those things move in a forward direction are two different things. I can put effort into anything, but sometimes there are uncontrollable forces that keep forward momentum from being achieved. It’s like the goal is there, but those outside forces don’t care for or acknowledge the steps that are there to lead the way. You’re not going to magically move ahead if you’re standing still.
I’m being vague, but maybe I’m not. I don’t know, and I’m not afraid to say that. I know I can get in my own way, but at least I know that and can push myself forward. Might be smaller steps, but it is forward momentum.
I’d like things to go a certain way, but that may mean doing it for certain things. I’m OK refocusing and redirecting effort if it makes sense and un-breaks my brain.